Sunday, April 16, 2006
6 days and counting
I have six days before I close out the end of my third semester of graduate school. I'm still amazed that I have survived. I've got several projects to wrap up this week - so wish me luck. I've also got some an amazing friend who is hooking me up w/ tickets to this Friday's symphony!! Thanks B.L.!!! To many people this is no big deal; to me however, it is huge. I have a problem - no one can go with me. I have two tickets and no date!! I'm still working on this issue - but quickly becoming discouraged. I hope that I can find someone to go w/ me.
We had an absolutely amazing Celebration Sunday at church tonight. That is the third Sunday of the month when we all meet for Sunday evening praise and worship (the other Sunday's we are split up into small groups). It was great - I don’t' know if it was because it was Easter, if it was because it was the first Celebration in the new building, or because of stress, but a picture flashed up from our England trip and I started to cry. (Good pic Phil). I really don't quite know what it was, or if it matters. I know that I have changed so much b/c while I still felt the need to run and hide it wasn't as pressing. I just sat in the pew and cried sitting right next to a person I don't even know. To many people this is no big deal, for me who is not a crier, especially in public - it's kind of a big deal. I don’t' really know what it was, but I think I learned a little bit about myself tonight. I think I realized again how separated I am from the singles group and that I'm emotionally much healthier than I have been in the past. I realize that may seem like a contradiction of terms, but I know I will get closer to the singles group again as soon as school is out and I have more time. My emotional health however, has taken several months to recover. I'm really proud of the progress I've made.
I don't know why I'm so reflective today, maybe it’s the nature of wonderful spring days and time to think. Maybe it’s the fact that I'm procrastinating school assignments, maybe it’s because I finally feel like I can openly describe the emotions I'm feeling. I don’t' know - thanks for reading - sorry if I rambled, but that's kind of what I'm all about - southern rambling!! Have a great week
We had an absolutely amazing Celebration Sunday at church tonight. That is the third Sunday of the month when we all meet for Sunday evening praise and worship (the other Sunday's we are split up into small groups). It was great - I don’t' know if it was because it was Easter, if it was because it was the first Celebration in the new building, or because of stress, but a picture flashed up from our England trip and I started to cry. (Good pic Phil). I really don't quite know what it was, or if it matters. I know that I have changed so much b/c while I still felt the need to run and hide it wasn't as pressing. I just sat in the pew and cried sitting right next to a person I don't even know. To many people this is no big deal, for me who is not a crier, especially in public - it's kind of a big deal. I don’t' really know what it was, but I think I learned a little bit about myself tonight. I think I realized again how separated I am from the singles group and that I'm emotionally much healthier than I have been in the past. I realize that may seem like a contradiction of terms, but I know I will get closer to the singles group again as soon as school is out and I have more time. My emotional health however, has taken several months to recover. I'm really proud of the progress I've made.
I don't know why I'm so reflective today, maybe it’s the nature of wonderful spring days and time to think. Maybe it’s the fact that I'm procrastinating school assignments, maybe it’s because I finally feel like I can openly describe the emotions I'm feeling. I don’t' know - thanks for reading - sorry if I rambled, but that's kind of what I'm all about - southern rambling!! Have a great week
Wednesday, April 12, 2006
2 weeks to go....
The title says it all. I have two weeks to go in this semester and I will have survived another semester of graduate school. I can't believe the things I'm learning, the rearranging of my priorities, and the fact that I have survived. I look back over the last few months and am amazed at what I have accomplished professionally, personally, and academically. It is nice to have this moment to recognize my success. I do however only have a moment b/c of final projects, meetings, work, etc. Life is never dull that is for sure, but at least I can take a few moments to smell the roses so to speak.
As I have been getting asked a few questions I will take a few moments to address my friends: It has been an interesting few months in the friend department as well. I have completely changed the group of friends I hang out, partly by choice, and partly by circumstance. It has been good for me though - I do miss my old friends and wish we had more in common, but also realize that right now we don't. It's sad, but true, some people will never be in our lives more than a few weeks or months - and that's ok. I love you and miss you all, but wish you the best.
On the same token, I'm closer to the people going through my graduate program, which is an amazing blessing, but having someone who understands the monumental tasks laid out before us at the beginning of the semester is a blessing. It has been a learning semester for me, very contemplative - which has been very healthy. I have loved what I have learned about myself, my friends (new and old), and I am excited about things yet to come.
I know that many of you have had a rough time the last few months, my apologies for not being able to support you the way I would have liked. I hope that you are well on the way to recovering or discovering whichever is appropriate for you to reach inner peace. Thank you for your support and love over the last year - it has meant more than words can say.
As I have been getting asked a few questions I will take a few moments to address my friends: It has been an interesting few months in the friend department as well. I have completely changed the group of friends I hang out, partly by choice, and partly by circumstance. It has been good for me though - I do miss my old friends and wish we had more in common, but also realize that right now we don't. It's sad, but true, some people will never be in our lives more than a few weeks or months - and that's ok. I love you and miss you all, but wish you the best.
On the same token, I'm closer to the people going through my graduate program, which is an amazing blessing, but having someone who understands the monumental tasks laid out before us at the beginning of the semester is a blessing. It has been a learning semester for me, very contemplative - which has been very healthy. I have loved what I have learned about myself, my friends (new and old), and I am excited about things yet to come.
I know that many of you have had a rough time the last few months, my apologies for not being able to support you the way I would have liked. I hope that you are well on the way to recovering or discovering whichever is appropriate for you to reach inner peace. Thank you for your support and love over the last year - it has meant more than words can say.
