southern ramblings

Well, I have taken one more step into adulthood this past week. I bought my first car!!! This is huge for people who know me and my family, I am very excited about it. Its a 2002 Nissan Sentra - it is adorable and I love it. This was a huge step in my independence, I picked out the car, and went through the whole car buying experience all by myself w/o my parents being here in town. I did talk to them on the phone, but basically I did it all on my own.

That is my exciting news. I now have a more emotional matter to discuss. I have a friend who blatantly persues any guys that I show or mention interest in. At first I didn't realize this tread was taking place, but conveniently after I have expressed my interest, my friend ends up meeting them for dinner, drinks, or just to chat !!! I was ok w/ it considering we were all becoming friends around the same time, until I noticed the distinct pattern of her behavior. This time she has gone entirely too far w/ this little game that she plays. I'm at a huge crossroads. Do I tell the guy about her game (and risk looking like the jealous girl)? Do I keep my mouth shut? Do I tell her how hurt and angry I am (not that she would care - proven by her actions)? We have this huge trip coming up, and I'm very much afraid she is compromising the integrity and purpose of the trip. Does that sound entirely foolish b/c I was interested in the guy? I worry about the effect this will have on my friendship w/ the guy - b/c I am becoming friends w/ him - dispite her attempts not to let that happen. I'm afraid that this will be like a dark Eeyore cloud that hangs over me on the trip. I don't want that to happen - but don't know a way to prevent it.

I hate how vindictive and mean she has been to me. I hate that she is deliberately going after the guy she knows I'm interested in. I hate that they have a short-lived past experience, and therefore already have history. Most of all I hate how middle school my adult life has become!!! Why falling in love be in real life, like it is in the movies....Boy meets girl, boy flirts w/ girl, boy asks girl out, they fall madly in love, date for an appropriate length of time, and stay together forever. Why must it be so complicated???